a glimpse into the dark recesses of a hyperactive mind

Disney Dream Portrait Series

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 02:12:57 GMT

World-renowed photographer Annie Leibovitz has been working on fabulous Disney recreations for almost a year now. The latest release- Disney ‘Fantasea’ inspired by Ariel from “The Little Mermaid” with Julianne Moore and Michael Phelps (merman in the foreground) is by far my favorite in the series.

another favorite Leibovitz piece is the john lennon and yoko ono portrait taken on the day he died and was released as the cover of Rolling Stones (#335) on January 22, 1981.

because OB is benign (so far) aka bec i'm a meme-whore

Wed, 28 Nov 2007 14:50:13 GMT

Go to Google images
Search up your answer
Pick one image from the first page
And post.

Photo Collage by Dundoo - MySpace Editor

The age you will be on your next birthday
A place you'd like to travel to
Your favorite place
Your favorite object
Your favorite food
Your favorite animal
Your favorite color
The town in which you were born
The town in which you live
The name of a past pet
The first name of a past love
Your nickname/screen name
Your first name
Your middle name
Your last name
A bad habit of yours
Your first job
Your grandmothers' name
Your major in college
Your favorite holiday

farewell, 2B05

Sun, 12 Aug 2007 13:22:06 GMT

So our rotation in Family Medicine ends, but unfinished paperwork stays to hound me for one more week or two. I am procrastinating on the Wellness Plan I should be doing for a PGH employee. Instead, here I am blogging. But how the hell, do I make a dietary/activity/stress plan for someone I haven’t met, completely clueless even of her height and weight! I might have to do the "no longer mandatory" interview afterall. :(

Other than that, our stay in 2B05 was fun.

The first taste of direct patient care was overwhelming. During my intial patient encounter, there was that nagging thought at the back of my head that I know absolutely nothing and I am bullshiting my way out of things, as MonMon would put it, “nagmamarunong.” I had no other choice of course, but to keep that façade temporarily and hope that whatever I’ve stored in my memory bank won’t fail me. Mistakes were committed, of course. But I eventually got the hang of it and gained confidence on my clinical skills. I feel like I learned more in the two weeks I spent in the clinics than I did in the two years I stayed inside the classroom.

I cruised through the public health lectures, though. Presenting in front of an audience is after all a comfort zone for me. I found so much satisfaction in being able to effectively connect with people and be able to bring my message across efficiently. The same patient contact that I think I’m going to miss as we start our Radiology rotation for the next week. While unlike some classmates, I do not have a hard time reading xrays and other imaging modalities, the limited contact with a breathing and moving person is something that might hinder me from really enjoying the rotation. Hopefully, I would be proven wrong.

FAMMED rotation wk1

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 14:12:18 GMT

Boo! I have class tomorrow. The good thing is today was a pseudo-free day. I only attended a 7-8am conference and spent (almost) the rest of the day binging in food. I ate lunch with The Blockmates at Mr. Choi and had a GREAT time. Then, after the training with the DS apps, I had dinner with Sir Martin at Ihaw1, even though I wasn’t really hungry. I am anticipating my love handles to double in size anytime now. Tsk.Tsk. Back to my salad and chicken breast diet next week.

Hopefully, our stint at the Canosa Health Center in Tondo tomorrow would be fun . With my loony groupmates, I don’t doubt that. :D

*And, no this entry is not wrongly titled. Only goes to show how uneventful the week's rotation has been.

a virtuous man passed mildly away

Sat, 14 Jul 2007 03:47:39 GMT

I initially intended to write an entry about my slavedriving tendencies but I’ll put that on hold to make way for a mini-tribute to a great man who yesterday sadly met his demise after suffering from a major CVA.

Seeing him walk, donning his trademark hat and carrying an umbrella around the academic oval to and from PhAn always evoked a smile on my face and a tag on my heart mostly because of his resemblance to my late grandfather.

His reputation as a well-respected mentor in the department had students look forward to attending his class. Usually, the class was the only chance a psych major would have to have him as teacher and because it was a course for the seniors, it seemed like a rite of passage.

His soft-spoken demeanor might give the false impression that he was passed his prime. I have to confess that I attended his class expecting a brilliant lecturer, someone who could make the text from Pinel come alive, his voice loud and clear, reverberating on the walls of my skull, in that sense he disappointed me. Instead of my preconceived notion of him as a teacher was a little old man whose dedication to his craft was betrayed by a twinkle in his eyes and a mischievous grin on his face that were always present every single time he stood in front of the class. In the end, he made me want to understand that dedication, inspiring me to pave way for my own path of learning, in that sense he exceeded my expectations.

Once in while, he would deviate from the lecture and break into his life stories. What could have been trite and contrived on others on him seemed heartfelt. Those moments only added more to the FG David experience that would forever endear the old man to me.

He seemed to be the last of his kind. I feel bad for the next generations of psych majors for they no longer have the chance to meet the great man, but I feel honored that I had mine. I might have chosen a different field from the one he dedicated most of his life, but his legacy lives on me. He would forever be remembered.

it's ngarag time once again!

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 14:37:45 GMT

who ever said 3rd year med is benign?

well, the past week surely wasnt.

the sched for the Infectious Disease module was jam-packed that a three-hour sleep a night is the norm. of course i made things worse by volunteering a) to present our discussion for the Sepsis Grand Rounds last thursday, b) to be my groups CCIS leader and be (as Joey and Trina would say) OC-OC about it and c) agreed to exchage my stint as LO for Derma to Medicince simply because I needed the pressure and the challenge. Jeez! Why can't I keep a low profile? Why do I thrive in stress? Why do I live for the highs of adreline rush and treat the crashing lows as a test of character? My mind is screwed up somehow...

and the exam today reminded me once again why i have long learned to consider exams as a mere requirement to pass a course and real learning happens in the wards and not the classroom. missing out on important things during ward precepts can be frustating, but an improvement here and there is always more rewarding than a decent a exam score.

Onco seems to be toxic as well. :(

at least i dont have to go to school til 10. (the upside of going home past seven and consequently being caught in a traffic jam for the CCIS meeting)

***
my mom is presenting a paper in HK next Monday, so she'll be arriving in Manila on Sat. For sure she'll need me for the last minute preparations. I'll still try to negotiate if I could a have the Sat morning off so I can adj for the first minimock.

end-of-the-summer jitters

Fri, 18 May 2007 14:51:31 GMT

MAX: You never answered my question. You like what you do?

ANNIE: Yeah.

MAX: But not right now...?

ANNIE: No, I do... like I can't wait. ...I love standing up in that courtroom. At the same time...I always get this clenched-up thing the night before the first day...

MAX: Clenched-up how...?

ANNIE: I think I'm gonna lose. I think I suck. I think my case sucks. I haven't prepared enough. My exhibits aren't in order. People are gonna figure out that I don't know what I'm doin'. And I've had this charade going for years. I represent the Department of Justice of the United States government and my opening statement is gonna fall flat at the really important point and the jury's gonna laugh at me.

Then I cry... I don't throw-up. A lot of people throw-up. I have a strong stomach. Then I get it together. And rewrite my opening statement. Work the exhibits. For the rest of the night. That's my routine. In the morning, it starts. I'm fine.

- Collateral (2004)

damn, i should have availed of the free flu vaccine!

Sat, 10 Feb 2007 11:43:25 GMT

Got afflicted with a NASTY viral infection last week. had to skip class last thu and fri. missed the legal med exam. f**k. missed the lps prevalentine gig.

now, i have a lot of catching up to do as far as acads is concerned. have to request for a special exam. wuh! a triple-threat exam for MSK is coming up, too. great!

sana pinagtiyagaan ko na lang yung pila for that damn vaccine! it coulda saved be alot of trouble.

howell, the 20/20 (6/6) vision of hindsight! *sigh*

but at least on the brighter side, am ok now.

ps DS pips, i might gate crash the CSB IVs tomorrow. gotta leave by lunch though

Hey y'all!

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 09:09:41 GMT

I’ve notice that I have been updating my tennis blog (Game, Set, Match) more than I do here. So after a long hiatus, am back.

* * *

School work is relatively lighter but ironically, I have less time to unwind since the holiday break. The last four modules were a series of a-week long courses and the thing with it is that the topics are crammed up into a very tight schedule that they take so much of your time and you have no other choice but spend the weekend at home to recuperate.

Here’s a rundown of how it has been so far.

Hematology. I am not much into microscopy, so I thought I wouldn’t like Hema. Fortunately, there was more emphasis on the clinical stuff, so I ended up enjoying the “rotation”. The exam contained mostly repeat questions from the previous block, which should be a reason for me to be happy. But the Mr. Goody-Two-Shoes (or if you could relate to the reference, the Julie Andrews) in me, worries that that the exam didn’t really measure the effort that I put into the course. (I completely blame Psych 162 for this mentality!)

Opthalmology. Competent faculty (especially Gabby’s mom), nice SIM (though a bit expensive), a relatively well integrated and coordinated course. Exam- same issue as previous.

Otorhinolarygology. Didn’t like SIM (wtf? It contained wrong information!) SGD was okay, though it needs more structure i.e. release objectives for the session. Exam: same issue.

Dermatology. I didn’t have much to say about derma last year. This year, the course tickled my interest. The symptomatology is visual making it easier to diagnose skin pathologies and I found out I am good at it. So derma has definitely become an option for me.

Next week, it would be Ortho and Rheuma. I think I am gonna enjoy it. So hopefully it would two weeks of fun, fun, fun.

* * *

My week is already off with a good start. I cooked pancakes today. Nothing beats homemade pancakes especially if you’ve prepared them yourself! Too bad, I didn’t have cholocate chips or fresh strawberries to make them more special.

a desperate need for an audience

Thu, 21 Dec 2006 13:52:08 GMT

year-end meme

1. What did you do in 2006 that you’d never done before?
Rush someone to the emergency room. I won’t ever forget it.

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Um, for the most part, yes. Struggled a bit in the middle of the year but managed to keep the most important one. Yeah, probably make more. I like to set concrete goals for myself and a whole year seems to be decent/realistic time-frame.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
not that I know of…

4. Did anyone close to you die?
not someone very close.

5. What countries did you visit?
Didn’t do any travellng this year

6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?

More sleep

7. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
(more of an event than an the exact date) Jojo’s farewell party- the Sir Mendoza incedent.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Surviving a year in med school and being three months shy of surviving the second.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Stress management. I should find a better way of dealing with stress. I really should stop relying on ever dependable Mr Marlboro.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Surprisingly, no. Didn’t even catch a bug. (Or probably I have a chronic illness that my immune system has gone hay wire hence, no fever, no cold and I’ll just drop dead on the street one of these days… Okay, I better stop. My hypochondriac tendencies are getting the best of me)

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My books. I think they are the best investment

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
The likes of Katrina Legarda and other people fighting for the cause of abused women and children

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Those kids getting on jeepneys to wipe your shoes/feet with their dingy rags for spare change.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Food and coffee. Self-indulgence is my middle name.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Dealing with patients in the wards

16. What song(s) will always remind you of 2006?
Any of Paris Hilton’s songs- reminding you that a synthesizer and tons of money are all you need to get a record deal. No wonder I’m stuck with anthems of the early 90’s.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. Happier or sadder?
Happier because I’m doing what I’ve always wanted to do and there’s always comfort in having a clear view of the road ahead.

ii. Thinner or fatter?
Thinner! Wee! The first time in years that I could make that claim.

iii. richer or poorer?
A bit poorer…the folks decided to reduce my allowance as a punishment (long story, don’t wanna relive it)

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Be more active, be more adventurous like go mountain climbing or something. And also more sleep.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Smoke and procastinate

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
With the parents, here in Manila. Promised to come home next year, though. Havent been home in years.

23. How many one-night stands?
none.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
House for the required medical TV fix. Six Feet Under still managed to impress me even after five seasons. Project Runway was entertaining.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
No. Hate is a strong word, anyway. J Seriously, I have no issues with anyone this year. Swear!!

26. What was the best book you read?
Salinger’s Franny and Zooey. I am currently reading it for the the third time.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
I’ve developed new level of appreciation for Carly Simon.

28. What did you want and get?
Ten more days to go before 07. I’m still am hopeful, I’ll get what I realy really want

29. What was your favorite film of this year?
Didn’t get to see a lot this year. Or to remember which ones I saw this year. But I loved V for Vendetta.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
big 22. had a wholesome dinner with the family and got drunk with friends.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
go for comfort

34. What kept you sane?
sleep, food, good company.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I’ve kept close tabs on Maria Sharapova’s tennis career and women’s tennis in general. I’m bored with men’s tennis. Federer is winning it all. Roger is talented but I am not a fan, so I’ve lost interest. So Safin better shape up or Murray should start delivering, otherwise, I’ll stop watching all together.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The on-going conflict in the middle east

37. Who did you miss?
Jojo! At least for the second half of the year. It’s weird being separated from my partner in crime. (Merry Xmas Jewjew!)

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Len turned out to be a riot to hangout with.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006:
Don’t beat myself up for the choices of others.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
”Twenty-four, twenty-four hours to go. I wanna be sedated”

mwahahaha!

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 06:00:17 GMT

i am still here

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 14:28:18 GMT

i am one of those people who thought AI3 would come down to a three-way battle of the divas... and then that infamous results show happened. but anyone who was moved by her hair-raising rendition of circle of life knew we haven't seen the last of Jennifer Hudson.true enough, she makes a big comeback with the big screen adaptation of Dreamgirls. As the movie's opeing date is approaching, jennifer is receiving tons of great reviews.

I've seen the trailer and heard her rendition of "And I'm Telling You" (thanks to YouTube)and I can say this would be her vindication (more so that she beat Fantasia for the role). Listen to "It's All Over" and you'll agree that she stole the show from Beyonce.

although technically, she's no scene stealer. Her character(Effie White) is supposed to be the main character. In a marketing perspective, it is understandable that the promotional startegy is to bank on beyonce, jamie foxx's and eddie murphy's celebrity. the attempt to draw parallelism with the story line where in the end effie/jennifer emerged victorious is excusable. but to field in beyonce as best actress and jennifer as supporting actress when her character was supposed to be the most pivotal role in the musical is beyond me. if the studio wants to avoid the co-stars slugging it out in one category, then drop beyonce and keep jennifer. jennifer holiday (and not sheryl lee ralph who played deena, beyonce's character) won the tony as best actress when she played effie on stage. give the same credit to hudson.

***
enough with my obsession with musicals. how cliche can i get?

life couldn't be more toxic and it has finally taken its toll on my body. noel first made a remark that i was losing weight. then odelle said i've lost A LOT of weight. although i have to admit the remarks made me smile, i never thought it was really obvious. but when i compared the photos taken last xmas party and those taken during claire's debut, i really did lose weight! (but im not going to make a post of a before and after picture because i no longer want to be reminded on how big i used to be).

the part of me who've been wanting to lose weight is happy. but the hyperchondriac in me worries that this is secondary to cancer, after all i'm a smoker. i know, am paranoid but not paranoid enough to quit.

med school has gotten really really stresful!but i still think its worth it. so no plans of dropping out yet.
"Quod me nutrit me destruit"

at least the four day vacation was a breather.

***
upds people: am off by 3 tomorrow so chances are, i'll drop by the tambayan tomorrow. i really miss you guys!

quick notice

Mon, 27 Nov 2006 11:35:03 GMT

my new number: 0927.510.9058. just in case you don't know it yet

one week down

Sat, 28 Oct 2006 12:31:35 GMT

first of all, CONGRATULATIONS to NICO and CLAUDIA for bagging the championship! you both deserve it. years of frustration and disappointment ended with your victory. congrats as well to the other members of the contingent!

***
anyways, the past week was spent staying up late until the wee hours of the morning and waking up at noon. i love being a bum! but after a while, it kinda gets old. and now am bored... (but am still too lazy to embark on some project)

i have retrieved my soul

Thu, 19 Oct 2006 13:16:57 GMT

i'm free!..at least for two weeks anyway.

actually, this week was a pseudo break for me already. i only had to take the third OB exam last monday and the Pharma finals this morning.got exempted from the other final exams. *snaps for me*

the past sem was so haggard,i ought to be happy about how things turned out.

except for a minor glitch. for the past week, everytime i meet ma'am sio around the campus, she'd give me a smile of acknowledgment, which for the longest time i assumed to be because she recognized me as a member of the MIC-guyabo group she handled for the pharma lab exercises. but when i passed my paper this morning, she made a comment about THE bioethics presentation we did a while back.i couldnt help but cringe inside. that presentation had become so infamous. i cant still believe i agreed to do what i did in that presentation (and no, i have no plans of going through the details in this entry).

oh well, on the bright side, at least it kinda debunked my reputation as a snob in class. oh, but at what price??!

bec i havent updated in a while... ITS MEME TIME

Wed, 11 Oct 2006 14:03:06 GMT

ARE YOU:
1. A cuddler? With the right person
2. A morning person? No. it takes a while before I could even converse after waking up
3. A perfectionist? On the things that matter
4. An only child? nope
5. Catholic? my mom wishes
6. In your pajamas? No
7. Currently suffering from a broken heart? Not really
8. Okay styling other people's hair? no
9. Left handed? I smoke, and eat with the spoon on my left hand. Does that count?
10. Addicted to MySpace? No.
11. Shy around the opposite gender? nope
12. Loud? rarely
12. Bite your nails? Never
13. Get paranoid at times? Nope. I have a cerebral personality so I tend to be level-headed
14. Currently regret something that you have said/done? None that I can recall
15. Curse frequently when you get mad? Incessantly
16. Enjoy country music? yeah
17. Enjoy jazz music? Yeah. I have an eclectic taste in music
18. Enjoy smoothies? Of course.
19. Enjoy talking on the phone? What for, when you have ym?
20. Have a lot to learn? Yup. Lifetime student, here.
21. Have a pet? Used to, a rabbit.
22. Have a tendency to fall for the wrong person? Not really.
23. Have all your grandparents died? Unfortunately.
24. Have at least one sibling? Have a younger bro
25. Have been told that you are smart? I get that a lot 
26. Have had a broken bone? Yes: ulnar fracture
27. Have caller id on your phone? nope

HAVE YOU:
28. Changed a diaper? nope
29. Changed a lot over the past year? Without me noticing
30. Had friends who have never seen your natural hair colour? No.
31. Had surgery? Only minor ones
32. Killed anyone? If I’ve had, I won’t tell
33. Had a haircut in the last week? No.

LAST PERSON WHO:
34. Slept in the bed beside you? bro.
35. Saw you cry? Sha (after iidc 4 quarters). Come to think of it, I rarely cry in public.
36. Went to the movies with you? last people standing
37. Went to the mall with? Last people standing.
38. You went to dinner with? Parents, bro and his gf
39. You talked to on the phone? The Laundromat lady

40. Said "I love you" to you and meant it? :)
41. Broke your heart? :(
42. Made you laugh? Monmon

WOULD YOU RATHER
43. Pierce your nose or tongue? A nose stud
44. Be serious or be funny? serious
45. Drink whole or skimmed milk? Skimmed, easier to swallow
46. Die in a fire or drown? Drown, more chances of being identified after
47. Spend time with your parents or enemies? Parents

ABOUT YOU:
48. What time is it? 10 pm
49. Nicknames? JC, Carlo, Jose,
50. Where were you born? Tuguegarao
51. When is your birthdate? May 15
52. What do you want? Am chasing it
53. Where do you want to live? Somewhere near the ocean

para sa ka-toxic-an ng life

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 16:12:04 GMT

Drowned World / Substitute For Love

I traded fame for love
Without a second thought
It all became a silly a game
Some things cannot be bought

I got exactly what I asked for
Wanted it so badly
Running, rushing back for more
I suffered fools so gladly

And now I find
I ve changed my mind

Chorus:

The face of you
My substitute for love
My substitute for love
Should I wait for you
My substitute for love
My substitute for love

I traveled round the world
Looking for a home
I found myself in crowded rooms
Feeling so alone

I had so many lovers
Who settled for the thrill
Of basking in my spotlight
I never felt so happy

(chorus)

Mmmmm, ooohhh, mmmmm
Famous faces, far off places
Trinkets I can buy
No handsome stranger, heady danger
Drug that I can try
No ferris wheel, no heart to steal
No laughter in the dark
No one-night stand, no far-off land
No fire that I can spark
Mmmmm, mmmmm

(chorus)

Now I find I ve changed my mind
This is my religion

***
the illegal midweek detox was fun. if only hang overs and nicotine overdose were the only things to worry about in life. too bad didnt go to the extended party at drews. only because of my last ounce of self control and sense of responsibility.

the end of an era

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 14:30:34 GMT

Farewell, Andre

"I don't take pride in my accomplishments. I take pride in the striving."

-- Andre Agassi

for the record

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 07:04:06 GMT

When I attended Jojo’s party last Friday, it never crossed my mind that I would have to deal with the first case of emergency in my medical career.

Just when I started to feel pleasantly lightheaded, with the alcohol managing to dull the pain of battered limbs, happily lounging with everyone, thinking that keeping me from embarrassing my tipsy self is my sole responsibility for the night, Sir Mendoza started to feel dizzy, fell off his seat, showed signs of labored breathing, diaphoresis and early digital cyanosis.

All of the sudden I had to bear (unprepared) most of the responsibility of making the judgment call on what to do regarding the potential near death situation that presented itself on us. I suggested bringing him to the hospital, partly because I thought I was being presented with danger signs and partly because I know there is nothing else I could do. For a split second, I berated my self for my incapacity. It may seem irrational looking back now but adrenaline has the knack for exposing your deep-seated insecurities. But, I somehow found a way to recover. I then helped the others to carry him to Emir’s car, not even the adrenaline rush can numb the strain on my already fatigued muscles.

The trip to the hospital was worse. I can’t appreciate a carotid or a radial pulse when I tried to palpate for one. I made the mistake of reporting my findings out loud (and matter-of-factly) to my regret because it only rattled Emir. I didn’t have the luxury to care, though, for I was too busy repeating to myself the steps for a proper CPR just in case I have to perform it on him. All this time, I have to draw all my energy to block off thoughts of what might happen if we failed, if I failed. Not only would someone die, but he would die under MY care, long before I can even officially claim he was under my care. Would I still want to become a doctor if I killed this patient because I was inadequate?

Inside my head, I am struggling to control my personal demons and at the same time, maintain my presence of mind. I could not of course, let it slip and show the other people inside the car the internal turmoil I was experiencing. I tried my best to appear calm.

I wouldn’t be exaggerating if I’d say it felt like a very long ride.

We managed to arrive at the hospital with a live patient. After some preliminary screening the medical staff declared that he was stable but they were keeping him overnight for monitoring.

I felt relieved.

Then as soon as the adrenaline dropped, I felt my body crash. I relied on a stick of good-ole-reliable Marlboro to keep me together… even for just a few more hours.

the alumni homecoming debate

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 08:41:18 GMT

urged me to unearth this from my dad's play list. btw, for the record, i think we won that debate. haha...

Watching The Wheels
John Lennon

People say I'm crazy doing what I'm doing
Well they give me all kinds of warnings to save me from ruin
When I say that I'm o.k. well they look at me kind of strange
Surely you're not happy now you no longer play the game

People say I'm lazy dreaming my life away
Well they give me all kinds of advice designed to enlighten me
When I tell them that I'm doing fine watching shadows on the wall
Don't you miss the big time boy you're no longer on the ball

I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round
I really love to watch them roll
No longer riding on the merry-go-round
I just had to let it go

Ah, people asking questions lost in confusion
Well I tell them there's no problem, only solutions
Well they shake their heads and they look at me as if I've lost my mind
I tell them there's no hurry
I'm just sitting here doing time

I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round
I really love to watch them roll
No longer riding on the merry-go-round
I just had to let it go
I just had to let it go
I just had to let it go

because it has been a while...

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 11:08:20 GMT

i want me some BOOZE!

living in the twilight zone..

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 01:28:11 GMT

is the state of being when you can't decide whether a class suspension due to bad weather is good news or bad news

had i been a normal student, i would have been jumping in glee since last night's announcement, but since i am living in a sort of an alternative universe, i am not so sure.

i am more than grateful for the extra rest period. hell, after a hellish two weeks, i damn well deserve it. but i am aware that this pseudo-benign four day weekend is only a masquerading impending doom, ready to prounce upon an unsuspecting med student.

the immuno module is scheduled to last the entire week with the two exams scheduled on wednesday and friday. the cancellation of classes yesterday and today, therefore means a mega disaster. all lectures missed yesterday and today will be assigned as self-study materials. there is also a (big) chance that once the skies clear up tomorrow, the exam will still push through. after all, self study is one of the founding principles behind OSI.

in short, the promised sleeping time is now officially, non- existent.

I have tried being deliquent for a while by going back to bed but guilt has taken the form of T cells, basophils, and antibodies threatening to eat my brain cells unless i give them my full attention. i can still hear their squeaky little voices. creepy! (i am not delusional. i am in the twilight zone, remember)

so, too scared to waste my frontal lobe, i am now trying decode pages of cryptic messsages that extraterrestials call immunology transcrpitions. the side effect of which is that i am turning into a pantry monster. love handles are here to stay.

seven years is a very long time

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 12:48:42 GMT

... to dwell on things left unsaid.
so i only do it once a year...

this made my day

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 14:34:19 GMT

my lj has turned into a rant board lately. so for a change, i (re)posted this lovely picture c/o tiffinbox.

resignation

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 15:52:53 GMT

another exam day came and went.

another day spent with bacteria and antibiotics.

another late night in the pharma lab.

another research paper to write and present.

two more exams to bookend the upcoming week.

but i've learned to stop fretting.

to accept things as is.

(why the hell am i writing in verses?)

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i had the weirdest dream last night...er...early this morning: i was a member of a team of superheroes being hunted by nazis